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Post by natalie on Jun 15, 2017 2:57:59 GMT
ROUND ONE
Dear diary,
We're off to a great start.
 Actually, I have no clue if we are or not. With the first HOH out of the way, I have no idea where I stand with either of the winners. Porsche and I had a decent conversation prior to results going up, but I don't think it really resulted in anything that's gonna guarantee me safety this week. As for Steve, he's someone I get along with on a personal level, but have never really CLICKED with on a game level. In RNF14, we obviously had our little...random.org debacle, and we weren't particularly chummy with each other in Twisted 8 either. I don't think he's the type to nominate somebody based on past game experiences, but I also don't think having a prior relationship with him is going to immediately benefit me here. I need to pick both of their brains a little bit. Being the first boot would be TRAGIC, especially when I'm already having so much fun. I'm gonna try writing up a cast assessment soon. STAY TUNED.  XOXO,Natalie |
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Post by natalie on Jun 17, 2017 2:00:32 GMT
ROUND TWO
Dear diary,
Okay, so, we’re gonna go ahead and put the cast assessment on hold. I started writing it last night and realized I honestly didn’t have anything interesting to say about anyone. Everyone is either super nice or Porsche.
YEAH, I SAID IT.
Okay, no. I take it back. Porsche IS super nice, but she’s also super calculated! And she wanted to nominate me, so fuck her!
Round 1 of the game may have had a somewhat underwhelming ending, but it was actually pretty insightful. Howie unintentionally saved my ass from getting nominated when he switched cliques around, because according to Ika and Jun, Porsche considered me one of the people she talked to the least. I mean, I guess that’s fine. I can’t exactly fault someone for wanting to nominate someone else that they feel they haven’t talked to, but it doesn’t help that she’s off apparently trying to make a “winners alliance” while all this is going down. I’m currently very sketched out by her existence, but I’m gonna try to keep it cute for now since it’s not like I can nominate her anyway.
Right now, I would say my strongest relationships are Becky, Kelsey, Ika, Howard, and Jun. By no means am I certain that all of these relationships are MUTUAL, but they’re who I’d like to work with the most moving forward. Ika and Jun both seem equally sketched out by Porsche, and after talking with Ika I’m kind of hoping to get a group together with her, Jun, and Howard. I honestly just want SOMETHING official, because I really don’t want a repeat of Naeha being left out of everything at the beginning. Outside of that potential group, I’m obviously still really close with Kelsey and Becky, and Jackie seems pretty fond of me too. If I can find a way to somehow merge all of these people together, I’d be good to go. Seems kind of unlikely, though!
Anyway, I think the game is heating up a bit. I don’t see myself winning this HOH, but I’m hoping whoever does considers Porsche as a nominee. She’s the only one standing out as a ~target~ for myself right now, but if Round 1 is any indicator for how this game is gonna play out, I’m sure that’ll change.
XOXO,
Natalie
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Post by natalie on Jun 20, 2017 22:44:07 GMT
Dear diary,
Good news: Porsche’s butt touched the block this week.
Bad news: it didn’t stay there for very long. Cody put her and Michael up, and I would say they’re both pretty decent when it comes to competitions, so it’s no surprise they beat Tiffany and Jen. It was pretty close though!
While Porsche leaving this week could have been fun, I’m not totally devastated that she isn’t. From what I can tell, she’s the type of player that people are gonna catch onto instantly. Her time will come, and I’ll be there to strike when I need to. For now, she can stick around and continue making herself a bigger target. I like having those types of people around in the beginning. They make it a lot easier to survive.
So, with Cody officially dethroned, that left Jen and Tiff on the block. I was initially really bummed about that, because I like the both of them a lot.
Jen and I have a bit of history. We’ve played a couple different games together now, and each and every time, we manage to end up working together. There’s something about us that’s naturally drawn to each other, and I think there’s something that just…works with us. He likes to point out how different we are as people, and I’m not gonna lie, it kind of hurts my feelings every time he does it, but I think we click well despite any differences we might have. I want us to have a thriving relationship in this game, and having one would probably align well with what I have going on with Kelsey.
That being said, I also really like Tiffany. I feel like I totally treated her like shit from a game perspective last season, and I really wanted to redeem that going into this. She’s a super sweet person, and I find her approach to these things endearing. She’s just…so blunt, and that’s something I actually really appreciate. I’m normally very coy when I play these, and expect others to be the same, so when I meet someone that’s the total opposite I can’t help but enjoy them? Most of the time, anyway. Plus, Tiff really seemed to come into this wanting to work with me and Jun, and I’d hate for something like that to end this early, even if Jun and I seem secure elsewhere.
Luckily, Jen won veto. Suddenly, after a day or so of worrying I’d have to make some big decision, I didn’t have to worry too much. Both Jen AND Tiffany could survive.
That is, until, Zach decided to put up Jacki, someone else I’m pretty close to right now, as the replacement nominee.
I’m starting to realize that I’m stretching myself a bit thin. Having people that want to align with you is great and all, but it’s significantly less fun if you find yourself having to choose between those people. Unfortunately for me, I’m going to have to make a choice this week. I have to choose between Jackie, someone that clearly enjoys me, and Tiffany, someone that sort of expects me to have her back.
With the way the house is talking, I have a feeling it’s gonna be Tiff that’s leaving. People don’t feel she’s been around as much as Jackie (debatable) and don’t really wanna piss off Zach. She’s his direct target, so he’d ideally like to see her leave. This round feels very “this is what the house wants”, which is always a bit annoying, but I do think Jackie staying has more benefits than Tiff staying. Jackie is in my clique, and if she was to leave, the chances of me going up when my clique is vulnerable increase. Plus, despite my fondness for Tiff, I have a closer personal relationship with Jackie.
HOWEVER, Kelsey dropped a bit of news to me today that Jackie was apparently trying to get Zach to nominate me, Arlie, or Steve instead of her. I don’t really care about Steve or Arlie, but it was surprising to hear that she was pushing for me after her alleged fondness for me. I don’t know. I’m a bit wary of her moving forward, but I think keeping her around for now might be better for my game.
That being said, I feel really shitty about how I’ve been treating Tiff. I think she’s going to feel really betrayed by me, and I don’t blame her. Moving forward, I think I need to be a lot less hands on when people are telling me about their concerns of getting nominated. I’m willing to hear people out, but after a certain point of being a shoulder to cry on, people start seeing you as someone that makes false promises. I’m not interested in that.
I also think I need to take a step back when it comes to alliances. I need to find someone I really trust and want to make my number one, because right now I have three potential groups being formed which is a total recipe for disaster. I mean, yay for having an OKAY social game this early, but having your hand in too many cookie jars rarely ends well.
XOXO, Natalie |
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Post by natalie on Jun 25, 2017 12:13:39 GMT
ROUND THREE
Dear diary,
SORRY FOR THE LACK OF UPDATES.
I will try writing something soon. Right now, all you really need to know is that I'm praying Ika stays and that Kelsey learns to keep her mouth SHUT. This stupid Arlie thing that's going around is so unbelievably blown out of proportion that I can't even handle it.
XOXO,
Natalie |
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Post by natalie on Jun 29, 2017 3:12:46 GMT
Dear diary,
Are you ready for this?
BUCKLE IN, CUZ’ THIS IS PROBABLY GONNA BE LONG.
Alright, where did I leave off? I think the last thing I talked about were my feelings towards Tiffany, which means we have a lot of catching up to do.
So, our original cliques were disbanded, and I was put in a clique with Cody, Shelli, Porsche, Jen, Howie, Arlie, Erika, and Steve. Becky and Cody both won HOH, which was great for me because I got to sit nice and pretty for most of the week. I’ve been maintaining a pretty good relationship with Cody since the game started. I wouldn’t say we’re having DEEP strategy talks, but it’s clear that we’re looking out for each other and have a lot of the same goals in mind. As for Becky, I think it’s hard for us to really stray away from each other. We have really similar personalities and bounce off of each other really well, so as predictable as it may be, I trust her. Mostly.
I am a bit suspicious about where I rank in her list of allies, though. I obviously don’t see her turning on me anytime soon, but I know that I was a last minute addition to our alliance with Zach and Jun, and the only reason I know that is because of Jun. I can’t be too mad about it, because I’m obviously keeping the alliance I have with Howard/Ika/Jun from her, but I’m very aware of the fact that she’s holding a couple of her cards closer to her chest. That’s fine, but I’m gonna need to keep that in mind once we get to a point where the game’s dynamics change a bit. Things are kind of straightforward right now for the two of us, but it’s not always gonna be like that. There’s a lot of game left to be played.
Anyway, Cody decided to put up Ika and Michael due to the fact that neither of them were talking to him, and Becky ended up putting up Jen and Erika. Jen and Cody ended up winning the POVs of the week, which meant that the nominations my clique was voting for would be staying the same, and that Steve would be going up next to Erika for the other clique. All of this was pretty fine and dandy for me. I knew I had the numbers to keep Ika safe, regardless of how fond I was of Michael on a personal level, and Jen winning POV was good for me from an individual standpoint.
See, Jen and I get along really well. While a majority of the house may be targeting her, I’m on good enough terms with her where I know I wouldn’t be an immediate target of hers. We’re in a bit of an awkward phase where we can tell that we’re kind of ending up on opposite “sides,” but I trust her, and I think she trusts me. That’s a relationship that’s beneficial to me to try and keep around, especially if she’s able to stay in the game longterm. Plus, I just like her. Putting the game aside, I genuinely like Nav as a person, and I’d rather spend the rest of the game talking to him than a lot of other people here.
With Michael and Ika being my options, my choice was pretty easy. Ika might be a bit quiet when it comes to talking outside of the house chat, but she’s actually talked game with me, whereas Michael hadn’t. Plus, Michael seemed like a bigger threat moving forward, despite Ika’s winner status. He’s very good at competitions, seemed to do well socially, and was on good terms with a lot of people that I wasn’t talking game with. So, I voted for him, as did Howard and Arlie. The vote tied, and from there Cody broke it and sent Michael home. Easy peasy. Sort of.
See, despite the fact that my clique’s vote ran pretty smoothly, there was a lot of drama when it came to Steve’s eviction. Kelsey was determined to keep him around over Erika, and managed to throw me and Becky under the bus in the process of this. See, Kelsey came to me a couple of days ago asking if anyone had approached me for anything alliance-wise. Obviously, I wasn’t about to play dumb and act like no one had. It wouldn’t be believable for me to do that, in my opinion, so I went ahead and threw Arlie under the bus for trying to make an alliance with me, Becky, Cody, and Erika and never following through. In true Kelsey fashion, she took this everywhere, and suddenly I had Jun coming to me and asking if it was true.
I told Jun that Arlie had attempted to make something but that it never ended up happening. Her reaction was pretty mild, because honestly Arlie trying to pull something together and then never FULLY committing is just so….Arlie. Everything seemed fine with me and Jun, and despite the fact that my name was getting thrown out there with this total non-alliance, I still seemed to be on good terms with everyone. Kelsey’s plan to get Erika voted out over Steve wasn’t working, and actually managed to rub everyone the wrong way.
Somehow, I got indirectly involved in this when somebody decided to start a rumor that Kelsey bullied me into giving her information about Arlie. I have no idea why this rumor was started, because while I was annoyed that Kelsey was throwing me under the bus, I would hardly call me giving her information a result of “bullying.” That’s just ridiculous. I ended up having to approach Kelsey one-on-one to clear the air, and thankfully, I think we’re okay now, but still. Everything about the entire fiasco seemed so unnecessary, and I have a feeling it was part of what sealed Steve’s fate.
Honestly, I think Jun was the one that started the entire thing. I initially thought it was Arlie, but he approached me about the situation all apologetic, thinking I had actually been bullied by Kelsey. A move like that seems a little too calculated for someone like him. Jun, on the other hand, was clearly annoyed by Kelsey’s pushiness towards keeping Steve, and could have easily taken advantage of the situation by spreading something like that. I think Jun is playing a really good game right now. She has people like Kelsey and Jen feeding her information, but is also tight with all of their enemies. I guess I could say the same about myself, but Jun seems to be actively stirring the pot. I think she has my back right now, but I’m gonna keep an eye on her. I think exposing her and her game right now would ultimately just end up exposing myself.
Anyway, let's put this on PAUSE for now. I have a lot more to say about the round at hand (four), but I have a few french toast sticks with my name on it.
TTYS EVERYONE.
XOXO, Natalie |
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Post by natalie on Jun 30, 2017 0:51:51 GMT
ROUND FOUR
Dear diary, CONGRATULATIONS You have won the Power of Veto!You have 24 hours to post your Veto ceremony!  XOXO,
Natalie |
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Post by natalie on Jun 30, 2017 16:23:32 GMT
Dear diary,
Alright, so Arlie winning was...the best option out of the last two people standing in the HOH competition, I guess. I would have most likely gone up had Corey won, so Arlie's HOH will do. However, he's been gunning for people that I actually enjoy outside of my alliances, so I'm left in a bit of an awkward position, especially now that Corey took Kelsey off the block.
I'm now forced to choose between David and Jen. On a personal level, this is a pretty easy decision. David is nice, but I definitely prefer talking to Jen. However, a majority of the people I'm working with want Jen gone, and I think keeping her around would end up pissing them off. Now, Big Brother is ultimately an individual game, but I think I put myself at risk if I piss off people like Zach, Becky, and Arlie all in favor of Jen, especially when none of the people Jen is aligned with actually give a fuck about me.
I'm just conflicted. I feel like I've been making a lot of really terrible decisions when it comes to how I've handled each eviction. I know Jen is gonna be upset if I evict her, and it just adds her to the list of pre-jurors that aren't exactly my biggest fan right now. This doesn't exactly give me a positive glimpse into my future if I happen to make it to the jury phase of the game.
Ugh, and to make matters worse, I got an offline message from Jun last night saying she thinks she fucked up. WHY DOES SHIT ALWAYS HAPPEN WHILE I'M ASLEEP?
XOXO, Natalie |
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Post by natalie on Jun 30, 2017 16:38:31 GMT
Oh, Jun and Shelli were working together and Jun told her about the alliance of me/her/Becky/Zach. WONDERFUL. |
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Post by natalie on Jul 3, 2017 2:51:27 GMT
Dear diary,
JUST TESTING.  Greetings, houseguests! Shelli and I have the honor of nominating two people for eviction tonight. I’d like to keep this relatively short, so let’s get to it!  Arlie, you're safe. Becky, you're safe. Cody, you're safe. Erika, you're safe. Howard, you're safe. Ika, you're safe. Jackie, you're safe. Jun, you're safe. Kelsey, you're safe. Porsche, you're safe. Zach, you're safe. Which means... I have nominated Corey for eviction. Corey, I think we're both pretty aware of the fact that we don't talk much. We haven't been able to click on a game level this time around, and I don't necessarily think either of us are to blame for that. That being said, ~decisions have to be made~. Best of luck during POV. My half of the meeting is adjourned, time to pass the torch to Shelli.  XOXO, Natalie |
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Post by heather on Jul 3, 2017 19:35:16 GMT
hi Natalie Mercedes Negrotti  *waves* |
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Post by natalie on Jul 4, 2017 18:07:00 GMT
Hi, Heather!
ROUND FIVE
Dear diary,
It’s about that time where I cram a week’s worth of thoughts into one post.
I guess we’ll start with Jen exposing the alliance of me, Becky, Jun, and Zach before she left. That was…not fun, to say the least. I woke up the morning of eviction day and spent a majority of the day doing damage control. I was mainly concerned about what Ika and Howard would think, but the two of them seemed to be pretty understanding, and if anything, the situation made them more wary of Jun than me. I think all of us were a little concerned that if Jun was spilling information about alliances that she had to Shelli, that she must have told Shelli about our alliance too. Jun swore up and down that she didn’t, so I’m thinking that “Howard’s Hunnies” is one of the few alliances I’ve been in so far that hasn’t been exposed to literally everyone. Well, I hope so anyway.
While the alliance getting exposed sucked, it unfortunately wasn’t the only thing that Jen aired out on her way out the door. I was mistakenly candid with Jen whenever we talked game. Our last few conversations were pretty forward about who we didn’t trust and why we thought that made it hard for us to properly work together, and I mentioned that I didn’t mesh well with Shelli. This obviously got back to Shelli, and once Jen was gone, there was a very obvious feeling of tension between me and the house’s resident Wine Mom. We had a fairly brief conversation about how we don’t want things to be awkward between us, but on a game level, I don’t think that mattered a whole lot. Me and Shelli don’t trust each other, plain and simple, and I think both of us are justified in feeling that way.
So, HOH happened and it was one of the few competitions I felt pretty comfortable with. I won the same comp during S14, so I was HOPING I would do well this time around. This was kind of the first time this season where I felt the pressure was on. I knew there would be a good chance of me going up if Shelli won, and I wasn’t exactly feeling comfortable with the thought of a Porsche HOH either. My name is much more “out there” than it was a few weeks ago, which means it’s time to stop slacking in the comp department.
Once results started going up, it ended up coming down to me and Shelli.
Super poetic, right?
We both got perfect scores, so it ended up being decided on a tiebreaker, and unfortunately for me, she beat me by about six minutes.
I was super frustrated with myself, mainly because I know I could have gotten a better score if I hadn’t questioned myself on whether or not it was actually Erika’s lips on the Cody/Erika baby. I spent the rest of the night beating myself up about it and freaking out about how there was a good chance I’d be going on the block next to Becky or Jun at some point during the week. Even if I WAS able to avoid the block, I knew I’d be voting out at least one of my allies. So, I go to bed. I was reaching that point in the night where I was thinking about the game a little too much. The person I wanted to win HOH the least won, there was nothing I could do about it, and I needed to just suck it up and accept that this week would be a little rough.
However, the following morning I woke up to some very FUN news. Shelli had opened Pandora’s Box, which meant that she would be sharing her HOH with one other person. And guess who that person was?
ME.
There’s something delicious about me having to share an HOH with Shelli. Honestly, I feel kind of bad, because this was the first week in a while where her alliance could have easily had all the power. I can’t complain, though! My ass is safe for the week, and ideally, I’d like for a few of my allies to be safe too.
With this newly found HOH power, I had a decision to make. I considered my options for the week to be Corey and Porsche. With Corey, he’s straight up never here. I like the guy, I really do, but I don’t feel like his heart is in playing this. The first time he really showed up and played was when he took Kelsey off, and I think the combination of inactivity and being closely aligned with Shelli/Porsche means that he’s gotta go. With Porsche, it’s obvious that her and I don’t trust each other, but the risk of Porsche STAYING over whoever Shelli put up was a little bit higher.
Ultimately, I ended up deciding on Corey. Shelli wasn’t too happy about this and even tried negotiating with me, but sorry Shells, I’m not really interested in keeping your inactive friend safe. She made a good point about how a lot of people are just floating/totally benefitting from this little side vs. side feud that’s happening right now, but it’s really hard for me to trust someone that I know has had multiple Final 2s. I imagine she doesn’t have a lot of trust invested in me either considering my name has been attached to just about every alliance that’s gotten #exposed in the game so far.
I don’t know. I think joining forces with Shelli/Kelsey/Porsche could be beneficial, because I have my doubts about people like Ika/Howard staying with me longterm. It’s just hard for me to believe that they’d wanna stick with something like that past convenience. They’re all incredibly smart players. It doesn’t really help that Kelsey is the only one I have a personal connection with, and even with her, I’m fully aware of how cutthroat she can be. I think this little battle is eventually going to have to end if any of us want to make it far, but I think I’d ultimately be more comfortable with Corey going this week considering the fact that I have no game relationship with him. Plus, I want people here that aren’t going to go an entire week without talking to me. I feel like that’s pretty reasonable.
Anyway, I picked Cody for veto and he ended up winning, and thankfully, noms stayed the same. He seemed to be considering taking Becky off, which I would have been fine with, but I think he made the right decision for himself by not taking her off. I think it would have totally set off red flags, especially because everyone was expecting him to keep noms the same. I think Becky has the campaigning skills to stay over someone that very few people actually talk to, so I’m not too upset about her still being on the block. I will, however, be VERY upset if she leaves.
As for what happens next, I’m kind of hoping that someone separated from all the alliance drama wins, just to see what they would do. Honestly, I’d like to see Howard win, because I have no idea where his loyalties lie outside of the hunnies, and I’m sure he has to have a couple.
XOXO,
Natalie |
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Post by natalie on Jul 7, 2017 21:01:41 GMT
ROUND SIX
Dear diary,
I’m thinking about how I’ve had several runs as HOH in this series, and each and every one of them has ended in my ally going home.
It’s time to re-evaluate my game right now. Playing nice with all these people in the middle clearly isn’t doing me any favors. Pretty much everyone is eating out of the palm of Jun’s hand right now, and if me/Zach/Shelli/Porsche/Kelsey keep going after each other, chances are she’s gonna be the last one standing, despite the fact that she’s been playing both “sides” and had some sort of deal with just about everyone in the house.
So, after Becky left, Zach made a good point: it’s time to swallow our pride and approach Shelli/Kelsey/Porsche for something. So, we did, and before the end of the night, I somehow found myself in a voice chat with Shelli and Kelsey trying to figure out where we go from here.
On one hand, it’s risky. Shelli and Kelsey are kind of the queens of loose lips, and I know the second they’re in danger, they’re probably gonna expose everything. However, if we can build a certain level of trust with them and emphasize on the fact that we all kind of need each other if we want to make it anywhere near the endgame portion of the game, it might just work. I don’t know, perhaps I’m being a bit naive, but I want to at least try to approach this with some optimism.
I have a feeling this round is gonna determine whether or not this new group is going to work. Jackie is HOH, which means Zach is 100% the target, which can be worked around…but Shelli can’t go up next to him if Howard somehow gets taken off. I feel like it would end in disaster if Shelli and Zach were next to each other by the end of this week, and I’m really not in the mood to deal with that.
Speaking of Howard, I don’t really know where I stand with Howard’s Hunnies right now. There’s been some obvious tension since all three of them voted out Becky, and I’m just not really sure if the trust is there anymore. Howard and Ika prioritize each other over me, and Jun definitely prioritizes herself over anyone. Obviously, both of these things are fine, it’s a game, but I’m not sure if staying with the group will guarantee me longterm success. I think all of them were willing to ride out the little feud between me/Zach/Becky/Porsche/Shelli/Kelsey at my expense, and I feel like that blatantly benefits them more than it does me.
I don’t know. I feel like I’ve had all of these little alliances here and there, but haven’t felt like I’ve really had someone I trust 100% yet. Maybe that’s just not what this game will be about, but I at least want to start working with people that have similar goals. I feel like every round has been an existential crisis, and I’m over it. I want to stand my ground for something instead of feeling so conflicted by the end of each week. Is that really that ridiculous of a goal?
XOXO, Natalie |
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Post by natalie on Jul 12, 2017 15:45:32 GMT
ROUND SEVEN
Dear diary,
WELL THIS FUCKING BLOWS.
I’m hoping I get the opportunity to catch everyone up tonight, but I have a feeling I’m gonna need Kelsey to win veto for that to properly happen. I’m toast if someone like Erika or Arlie wins. Kelsey was really good at this competition during her season, so I'm just gonna need her to pull through and save my ass before anyone else tries to save David of all people.
XOXO,
Natalie |
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Post by natalie on Jul 14, 2017 6:32:21 GMT
ROUND EIGHT
Dear diary,
 XOXO,
Natalie |
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Post by natalie on Jul 18, 2017 16:59:39 GMT
Dear diary,
Okay, so I’ve totally sucked at updating this. I KNOW. I’m terrible. I promise I’ve been working my butt off in the game, though!
To get specific, I’ve been working really hard on building my relationship with Kelsey. The fact that she saved me last week came as a surprise to a lot of my fellow houseguests, but I was…kind of expecting it? And that’s not me trying to be cocky, either. I just know that Kelsey and I have finally reconnected on a game level after weeks of clearly enjoying each other on a personal level. We’ve been talking a lot about what our best path to victory is lately, and while I’m aware that these plans can easily change later, I’m currently enjoying the thought of us going far together. We have a lot in common, and while I know she’s capable of being an incredibly cutthroat player, I do think that she has my best interests at heart…for now.
Of course, right as I came to this realization, Erika won HOH. Now, initially, that wasn’t too big of a deal. Last week she was having public blowouts with Ika on what felt like a nightly basis, so I figured it’d be Ika and Jun in trouble this week. However, with Kelsey opening Pandora’s Box during her HOH, a twist was unleashed and Kelsey ended up going on the block as “pawns” due to a limited nomination pool.
According to Erika, the plan is to backdoor Jun. I’m fine with this, mainly because I think Jun being out of the game helps eliminate any remaining suspicions that her and I are still close, but I’m still highly concerned for my safety. Kelsey was able to win veto and take herself off, which is great if Erika decides to stick with her plan, but it’s also hard for me to fully trust Erika will follow through. Her and I don’t really communicate when it comes to strategy, we never have, so I can’t help but feel a little scared that she has something else up her sleeve. I think I could easily go home this week if I’m next to anyone that’s not Jun or Ika, so all I can really do at this point is hope for the best and campaign my ass off if I’m put in a sticky situation.
If I can survive this week, not only do I make jury, but I think I have a couple of friends willing to move forward with me. I’m still close with Zach, I’ve talked about my blossoming relationship with Kelsey, Howard and I are still on great terms, and I would say my relationship with Corey is ten times better than it was at the start of the game. I’m getting along a lot better with Porsche, too. All of us seem to have the same goals in mind, so I think if we can get something going with that for a bit, we’d be golden. That being said, I’m not dumb. It’ll turn to an eventual bloodbath within the next couple rounds considering the fact that this cast is getting smaller and smaller.
My game has been a bit of a mess, honestly. I don’t necessarily think it’s been BAD, but having alliance after alliance exposed hasn’t exactly painted me in the most positive light. That being said, I think if I can stabilize myself over these next few rounds, and MAYBE start sucking a little less at competitions, I could make it far (and hopefully win).
#PRAYFORNATALIE
XOXO,
Natalie
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