[Diary Room - Round 6]

[jackie]

I feel like getting Shelli out is doing Jun's dirty work when I do think she is good for me but like... I kinda told some people about a potential backdoor shelli plan.  maybe i should just go through with it and say that this is what the house wants to see.  I also told Zach that there was a plan incase the veto was uses to keep him safe.  ugh I'm a mess.    I feel like the Sindy in being pressured to backdoor Neda. loool

Convo I had with Zach to which if I do end up keeping him safe:

yeah I told Zach that there is something I am suspicious about because after this round, if I tell him about Jun double dealing and exposed her alliance (accidentally), he could help me go after them since she did expose his alliance.

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Jackie - Today at 12:40 AM
if you do end up staying, are we good? like you nommed me, and i nommed you, this is not gonna go back and forth til the end of the game?
chrispy - Today at 12:41 AM
chrispy - Today at 12:10 AM
Ily
with all my heart
if thats a thing lmao
^that wasn't a knee jerk reaction haha
If i do stay and you end up helping me stay like i did with you we're 1 million percent square
Jackie - Today at 12:44 AM
and we would talk more game together and trust each other more?
chrispy - Today at 12:44 AM
Yes i feel like that would be a good idea, the only reason i hadn't really talked to you as much was because I would look at who was online and if you had like a red or yellow color next to youe name id assume youre busy
which is a BAD habbit that i have since dropped lol
Jackie - Today at 12:46 AM
Okay because I do think if i help you get the votes, you could be beneficial to me. there is something that I am suspicious about but i dont want to say anything until this round is over
lol yeah thats cause i m always mulitasking when online, ill watch youtube videos or randomly leave the computer
Your expose alliance, is that pretty much dead now? or is there awkwardness between you, nat and jun?
chrispy - Today at 12:49 AM
well we used to have a group chat that since it was blown up was never used again (not like it was MEGA active before that anyway)
i think there is a bit of sense of nervousness between the 3 of us but i still talk to them and feel friendly enough, like had howard stayed on the block next to me i think i could have maybe relied on their votes, but i think thats about as far as itd go
and i guess i'll ask u about the suss thing once this is all done
Jackie - Today at 12:50 AM
Okay,that is cool then :smile:
chrispy - Today at 12:51 AM
but yeah i mean i DO think im going to stay a target for however much longer i stay in so i do agree that me staying in would almost surely help
Jackie - Today at 12:51 AM
yeah what i am suspicious about has nothing to do with what i had in mind pre nominations
chrispy - Today at 12:51 AM
much to my chagrin anyway about the target thing but kinda accepted it haha
but ok fair enough
just ask whenever i guess haha
Jackie - Today at 1:03 AM
i needed to know if i can trust you first
lol
since i know we've been teethering with each other for a bit lol
chrispy - Today at 1:04 AM
Yeah i understand!
well im very much the kind of person who feels the need to repay their debts if i have any
and i feel like this would very much be me giving you an "I owe ya"
i told pilar that in rnf12 after she saved me and i really did mean it, i wasn't going to vote for her despite it being unanimous until she basically said it was ok to

[jackie]

Been sleeping on this and I think I know what I have to do... I just don't want to do it. :/ I've been weighing out the consequences of keeping Shelli and Zach and I've come to the conclusion that keeping Shelli could be bad for me. In a way, I know she can be good for me however the bad stuff overpower on that more.  If she ever found out (because people have big mouths in this house) that there was a backdoor plan for her, I know she'll come after me and instantly stop talking to me. I know she can be a vengeful person and she's scary to have after you. lol She might not say it to my face but I know she'll say it to other people and that is weighing heavily on my mind right now.  
I think I can repair a relationship better with Zach because he doesn't seem like the vengeance type and could be more beneficial to me.



Oh magic dice what should I do:

1. Keep Zach
2. Keep Shelli

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1-2

[jackie]

I got myself into a mess and I think the only way out is to go through with backdooring Shelli :/

[jackie]

gonna expose this so called alliance after the eviction before i leave on vacay so my allies have something to think about when I'm gone.

I think Jun/Ika are f2, they have howard wrapped, Natalie is the 4th and i'm the 5th since I'm just in a group chat with two of them.

[jackie]

[Draft]

Congratulations on winning the veto, Howard! Now that Howard has pulled himself, I have to make a replacement nominee and this is never an easy decision.  After thinking about this decision countless of times and discussing it with you guys, I think it's fair to nominate someone that the majority would be like to see.  It does sadden's me that I have to do this.. ugh but I think if I did not do this, I will regret it later down the line.




My replacement nominee is.... 

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Mhm, you made me a deal with me to get to help each other get to jury and I sadly have to break it;  but once we are there, then what?  Although, not only have you made deals with me but you've also been exposed to making deals with a lot of other people too so really? Where does your loyalties lie at all?  

  [/Draft] will post later once its all finalized 

[jackie]

I mean, I know Shelli CAN be good for me but if I didn't f'd up and tell a few people what I had planned, I would've gone through with having Zach leave. But since I am in this pickle of a mess, the only way out is to go through with my original thought. plus like I'm in "PLLs" with Jun and Ika and it wouldn't be ideal to go against them... yet. I have to start looking at people who I care the most and Shelli isn't at the top.

[jackie]

Arlie is so annoying

[jackie]

Meanwhile while the houseguests are busy with this eviction vote, I am packing my things...

[jackie]

This round worked out all too perfect. Lol 

[jackie]

Jackie - Today at 11:43 PM
btw im glad shelli is out. she was like toxic trash
Erika - Today at 11:43 PM
Loool
Post this in ur dr