Diary Room

[erika]

Corey should put up Howard and myself for eviction, if he nominates Zach and Natalie he's just doing Kelsey's dirty work.

[erika]

Kelsey is in Las Vegas, she's busy working, she's at the concert and she's too busy being depressed since all of her friends are dying and threatening to kill themselves, yet everytime I log in she's on #bbhouse chat. Don't get me wrong, I spent that one Saturday doing nothing but watching PLL and doing endurance but it's so embarrassing how Kelsey won't stop lying smh.

[erika]

When it comes to HOH, I honestly feel like I'm going to make it through this round and I think I'm going to make it to the end because I can't imagine anyone wasting their HOH on me.

[erika]

[erika]

I got the feeling Arlie's going to stay but apparently there are enough votes to keep Cody safe this round.

[erika]

Hey guys.

I just wanted to send this while I wrapped up my trip back home because I'll probably pass out asap. I've taken a break from the game and decided to delete discord for the rest of my trip. It was both consuming a lot of my time there checking it and I messed up so bad I hated myself.

I feel like complete shit. Cody, I'm sorry that I decided to be a dumbass and trust Howard when he was saying he had stuff on you. He hinted to knowing about a group that I was in before and from all he showed me (aka what he faked) I thought I was getting played by you and was nervous that I was just the next target for you once Howard left. He just kept adding more stuff as time went on. So I cracked because of it. However, Howard lied to me during the entire round and all the stuff he said you did wasn't even true. You deserve better than me.

So yeah. I feel like a complete and utter idiot and I fully understand if y'all decide to target me, especially Cody because I made the dumbest move of the entire season. I was a horrible and shitty friend and let paranoia get the best of me with alcohol in my system. Not my best look.

I messed up and I can't forgive myself for what I've done. I don't want no sympathy or anything but I feel destroyed inside, I wish you both outlast me in this game. I don't deserve it. I've never regretted something so much in all my years of orging.




I'm sorry again

Ps: I don't respect anything in return. I owe you the both this much at least.

[erika]

I'd love to win POV this round, I think I'm safe but I'd like to veto one of the noms.

[erika]

And Kelsey's so messed up in the head she's sending people photos to prove she was drunk when she put Cody up?? Idgi.

[erika]

I asked for one alliance throughout the entire game. It was me, Nat and Corey because I felt like it was my best chance to win the game but apparently I'm such a schemer, I got deals with everybody, even though I don't talk with half of the cast. I don't get it, anyone can check out my org past and I'm speechless. My gut feeling is telling me Corey and Howard are in this together and I totally screwed myself over with all the strategy talk. I think I'm certainly going but I'm going to hope Porsche is the one who ends up leaving.