Round #11 - Wild Card

[zach]

Corey winning HoH is either going to result in me barely dodging a bullet or getting full out hit in the face. I don't have a great relationship with him but I'm hoping that it's at least positive enough to not be his primary target. I'll just have a lot of sucking up to do in the next few days. 

I was a bit back and forth between wanting to win this HoH and not because of next round being the live eviction. I don't want to be a sitting duck in another live round so being able to compete sounds ideal to me. However, I'm incredibly worried about this week even because with Jackie gone I do recognize that the next target is somewhat ambiguous. Erika and Arlie are still kinda on the outs but that's 2 people during a week where up to 3 people can theoretically be nominated. I don't have a great relationship with Corey so I very well can be a potential BD target for the round. I sure HOPE not but ya never know. I'm hoping the fact that he has been so open with Howard will help me because Howard might have my back if it comes down to it. Don't plan on relying on that though.

But as a result of being unsure I went as hard as I could in the HoH and it just wasn't gonna be enough. There were a whole bunch of bracket combos that would have meant I was the winner, and I think I had the fastest (if not one of the fastest) overall times adding them all up, but those unfortunately were not the brackets for this challenge and as a result I lost. That's just the way it goes sometimes and hopefully I don't regret my performance. 

I did buy a PoV advantage JIC so here's to hoping I don't need to use it ever. 

[zach]

If myself or Natalie get eliminated because of this fkn Banada I'm going to be so mad tbh lol.

Also, I considered using my PoV advantage this round because I feel like there is the potential for me to be back doored but I feel like it wouldn't have helped very much given the amount of time I spent on that first puzzle. I only didn't use it because I felt like next week I'm going to be in so much trouble if I made it that far and I don't win HoH. Even if I did get eliminated this week by not using it, I'll have been in so much trouble next week that I think I'd be a goner anyway if I am on the block and don't win veto. This advantage is what I got in this game and just have to hope I don't eff it up.

[zach]

Well Cody winning means its even MORE likely for the plan to backdoor me is gonna be put in affect tbh if that is a thing. I am praying 2 god that it's not and that this is all just an easy week in Corey's mind but I just can't get over the fact that he didn't tell me about the noms beforehand and I haven't been talked to very much as of late. Cody isn't even responding to me after I said congrats and talked briefly with him.

I'm trying to talk a lot with Porsche now to try and see if I can solidify her vote in case things do get ugly and I end up on the block. The problem is that I need 4 votes and I have no idea how I'm supposed to expect any more than potentially 3 votes on my side. Erika and Arlie MIGHT vote to keep me, but I think that's realistically all I can expect unless I somehow convince Howard or Kelsey, both of whom had had relationships with Natalie longer, that me staying would be better for their games.

Tbf I can see the argument for that being the case. Natalie has developed into the super pawn. She is better at comps than me and has proven to be able to survive thanks to her various relationships. I don't have that and yet I'm still probably publicly seen as a more potentially threatening player and a wild card. That means if I stay I'm going to be the target rather than maybe one of them. At least that is the hope and that's my hail mary in case I do end up back doored.

I guess there is still a chance the veto doesn't get used, or it is used and Arlie goes up in place of one of Nat or Erika. I just have to hope and pray and do the little work I have the capability of doing.

9th would be an old look anyway

[zach]

Yeah Howard pretty much confirmed my suspicions that the plan is for me to get back doored. Cody was talking to him about it and I guess it's good that I tried getting the jump on things.

Blegh.

[zach]

And with that, I recognize the huge amount of trouble that I'm in. Not that I didn't already but like, ya know, it's more confirmed now.

Just feel dumb because if only had any capability of winning a comp I wouldn't be in this position. Definitely gonna be a long shot as far as staying over Natalie but I guess I've survived worse. I guess theoretically I may not he put on the bloc but like let's be real here, Cody's speech made it pretty clear.

[zach]

If my legacy is mildly inconveniencing Cody for 2 weeks I'll gladly take it tbh.

Been trying all of the last 24 hours to pull out every stop I can but I understand I'm likely getting a lot of lip service.

I'd say being at a baseball game now is hurting my opportunities to talk to people but tbh it isn't happening very much anyway now. Last night was when I got the primary amount of campaigning done.

To Kelsey I said that I'm the only person in the game who has a bigger target than her. Cody and Corey made alliances with Howard and Arlie and are getting close to Erika so they're clearly preparing to cut her. The problem is that Kelsey was probably still very involved in getting me back doored in the first place despite claiming ignorance. At least Porsche admitted to knowing it was happening. Kelsey keeps saying her vote alone isn't enough and she's "heard" it'll be 4-2 and I'm just thinking on the in side "please shut up and be upfront for once in your life and maybe we can save some time"

As fsr as Porsche is concerned, I told her about how both Corey and Kelsey were making alliances without her and thst she needs to be ready for when everthing breaks apart. I'm more with her than Kelsey which can't be said for Natalie (at least so im saying). Her big thing is that I haven't talked to her as consistently as Natalie which sucks becsuse not like I could do anything about it with my recent schedule, but also it was probably a bs reason anyway tbh.

I'm not done yet and plan to continue fighting to the very last minute but I'm just sad I wasn't able to be as fun this time around and Thats on me. Miracles do happen but if not,

9th could be worse 🙂